Saturday, November 17, 2012

~~~ One Month Old ~~~


                                                Baby B

I know you are a baby but you aren't so tiny anymore! You're eviction notice was a month ago...hard to believe. Our hearts couldn't be more full of love for you... even if some nights you are nocturnal and want to party. You were born 8lbs 8 oz and within your first week you were back to birth weight. Then the next week you gained 11 oz weighing in at 9 lb 3 oz! Now, you are close if not at 10 lbs! Which means, you are in 0-3 month clothes now. Your NB sleepers are too short in the arms and legs. You didn't have much growing room since you were born 21 inches long. I call you Bubba, munchie cause you are my munchkin, buddy, B, and Brayden Cooper (I kinda sing it like a song you like it). Your eyes are blue for now... Mama doesn't think they will stay blue. You have dark brown curly hair and an awful whirl cowlick in your front hairline. That is going to be a fun one for mama to cut! 

Your favorite activity by far is bath time! You go limp with a look of extasy on your face. Speaking of your face, you have so many expressions. My favorites are before and after you go poo. From red faced grunting to pursed lips and eyebrows raised in satisfaction. Your coo's make daddy and I laugh and smile. We could eat you up! You really like loud music. You like to go on car rides and more recently enjoy hanging out in the moby. You konk out in the stroller when we go for walks. You make it clear when you are hungry and I can never get ready for you fast enough. Once you've started nursing, you make some funny noises and your legs move like crazy! You really like your food! You have even proved yourself talented enough to take a bottle! Although, not so talented enough to figure out a pacifier... please take one soon because the screaming drives me bonkers! I do think you will be a thumb sucker. You suck on your hands all the time and one day you will find that thumb!

You do not like being ignored or left alone for one second. You tolerate tummy time for 5 min. You scream and fight your sleep...silly boy. But we love you just the same! 


You are changing so rapidly. It makes me excited to see what you will do next but sad that these precious newborn moments are flying by too quickly. We cherish every snuggle time we can get from you. And you like to snuggle lots! Mama does not want to go back to work in Janurary but is thankful it will only be 2 days a week! It is so much fun being home with you... even when you throw your fits!

HAPPY FIRST MONTH MR. B. COOPER!- XOXO MAMA AND DADA






Monday, November 12, 2012

39 weeks and 4 days...

AND LABOR BEGAN....


Sunday, October 14, 2012, I woke up at 6:30 AM. This had become my normal routine. As I went to the bathroom, I realized there was some bloody show. I went back into the bedroom and told Nic FYI he will be coming soon. I didn't realize labor was about to start. I went back to the bathroom because something didn't feel right. A clot the size of my fist came out and I freaked. I yelled for Nic and he handed me his phone that was already calling the hospital. They told us to come in and we did so. I was hooked up to the stress test and asked not to move. That is when contractions started. My contractions were 3-5 min apart the entire labor! After an hour and a half, my Dr. got there and he, Dr. Mora, was not concerned. He said I was in pre labor. Oh, did I mention I had contractions and was told not to move! I was a finger tip dilated and 90% effaced. He told me to go home rest up and come back later when contractions were stronger. My dad jumped in his car and my mom called in a sub since she was at work. Once home, my dad asked about every 30 min. if we could go back. He said, "Stef don't you feel like it's time? Can't we go back?" He was a little excited and had no idea the long labor we were in for! My wonderful husband gave him a beer and they watched football! Yes, the beer was consumed after 12:00 PM. At 3:30 PM, after hours in the tub and rocking on my ball, I decided it was time to go back in. They checked me and hooked me up to the stress machine (I despise these round monitors that are not so gently shoved into your tummy) and declared I hadn't changed. I remember thinking, "But how could this be? I sure feel like something has changed with all these contractions!" My Dr. said I could go home or walk around for an hour and hope my dilation changed. I quickly realized just how small the labor and delivery floor of the hospital was! After an hour, they checked me again. I was a 1 almost a 2. My Dr. told me I could go home and come back or I could be admitted. Wahoo you just said I could be admitted!?! I would have crawled in a hole if I had to tell my dad we were going back home! I didn't wait for them to "admit" me before heading straight for the tub. I think I was a fish in my past life! The nurse came in after about 40 min and told me I had to get out of my happy  place (the tub) and into the bed to get admitted.... humph fine! "No, no one told me I had to have these darn monitors back on! For how long?" And here came the second worst news of my labor.... I had to wear the monitor for the rest of labor!!! I wanted to rip those things off me! "Wait, Can I go back in the tub with these things or will I get electrocuted?" Thank goodness it was safe for the tub! After one nurse blew two veins in my left hand, the other nurse safely placed the IV in my right hand! Here's to awful black and blue and pain from blown veins...cheers! After 16 hrs of 3-5 min. contractions even my happy place was not fun anymore. 2:30 AM I asked for the epidural. I really wanted to get to 4 cm before having it but that was not happening fast enough. Why, oh why, was I ever afraid of the epidural process? I felt nothing and the anesthesiologist said I had a skinny back! Ahhhhh, the pain was gone from my lower back and belly... isn't this great guys? Well, I may have gone into chatty mode at 3 AM and neither Nic nor my parents were into it. In a nice way, the told me to shut up and get some rest! And so I did. 5 AM Dr. Mora came back to check me. SPLASH GUSH FLOOD... yup there goes my water all over Dr. Mora aaand I was now at a 4! It was that easy, go to sleep and you progress! Dr. Mora was off to meetings and Dr. Dowling was taking over. He started me on pitocin to get things moving along a little faster. The pitocin can go to 20 and at around a 6 I started to feel back pain. I told the nurse and she said hit the button for more medication. Well after hitting the button 5 times, and the pain getting worse, something was not right. She rolled me over to find that my epidural had come out just enough to stop working! Full on contractions with pitocin are nasty! I tried to breathe through them but half the time tears were rolling down my face. An emergency c section had just gone in, and the anesthesiologist would be 45 min before he could get to me! Once my second epidural was in, life was grand! My epidurals were the best. Everything was numb and I could still move my legs somehow! When Dr. Dowling came in at noon to check me, I had not made any progress. She squarely looked me in the eyes and said it was time to talk reality. She said I would most likely end up a C- section but she would still give me 2 and a half hours to see if any progress could be made. I was not giving up without a fight. I opted for increasing my pitocin and getting contractions a min. apart in hopes to fully dilate. My pitocin was slowly uped to 18 and Brayden was monitored closely. He did great! My time was ticking and with 30 min left Tami called in help for me! Doula Carolyn to the rescue! Dr. Dowling didn't come back until 5 PM instead of 2:30 PM which was a blessing. Carolyn had me in all sorts of funny positions. Upside down, all fours, on my knees, "sifting" me with a scarf and the nurse may have thought we were crazy but was rooting for me! 5 PM the moment of truth.... NO CHANGE! And with that Brayden was handed his eviction notice. Dr. Dowling told me not to be upset and that I had literally done everything I possibly could have. That having this C-section was not me giving up but that he was too big to come out. It was not what I wanted to hear. She explained what was about to happen and I half listened trying to fight back tears of defeat and fright. Carolyn prayed over me and as they wheeled me away I burst into tears. The nurse invited my mom in (which she okay-ed with me after inviting her in hahaha I didn't mind and wanted her there. Oh, my mom is an RN works with premie babies at Swedish.. this is her gig) She and Nic were suited up and came in once I had been prepped. My arms were tied down, the curtain was up, and I was full on shaking freezing. Some nice person decided to grab a bag of antibiotics out of the fridge and put it in my IV!!!! The anesthesiologist tried to help me get warm but not much you can do when it is running through your body already. At 5:55 PM, Brayden Cooper Truscott was born 8 lbs 8 oz 21 inches long. There was lots of shoving and pushing going on after he came out. I kept asking the anesthesiologist what are they doing?!?! He was great and kept me updated the entire time. It seemed like forever while they put me back together. I was wheeled to recovery and finally able to hold my beautiful baby. I have so much more to say about his birth but this novel is long enough! After 33 hours of labor, Brayden Cooper Truscott was born on October 15, 2012 and shares his birthday with my dad! He is a proud grandpa to share his day!

until next time...

Friday, November 2, 2012

heartbroken mama

Yes, our little guy is here but that is for another post. 

Let's back up to 34 weeks pregnant...
...We went in for a routine check up with a Dr. we had yet to meet. The clinic we go to has five doctors and two are male. Dr. Mora and Dr. Mallory are the two male doctors. I enjoyed Dr. Mora and now it was time to meet Dr. Mallory. I was less than impressed with him. He talked really fast and likes statistics. I found him rather random and wasn't quite sure what to take from the appointment. He basically was telling me that there was no way I would deliver this baby naturally. He mentioned c-section and that was it for me. This man was not high on my favorites list. He wanted to "start collecting a data set" to see how big our baby boy was. He asked us if we wanted to have an ultrasound at our 35 week appointment. Sure, why not. It would be another chance we get to see our little guy before he is born. We arrived at our appointment a week later eager to see our little guy! The ultrasound was first and then we met with Dr. Dowling. We really like her (she ended up delivering us). She is patient and listens to your wants. It was towards the end of our appointment when she said so they talked to you about the hydronephrosis. Nic and I stared at her blankly... the huh what? She back pedaled and said oh sorry I thought they had told you. His left kidney was slightly dilated meaning there was a blockage somewhere. She said it was common in boys and would probably go away once he was born. She didn't make it sound like it was something to worry about so I tried to let it go. It wasn't until after he was born and we were heading to our first pediatrician appointment that my dad reminded me to ask about it. His Dr, Dr. Ban, didn't see any records of my 35 week ultrasound. I asked Bellingham OBGYN to send my records over. Dr. Ban reviewed them and wanted to have an ultrasound done on B to see how his kidneys were. On Tuesday, B had his ultrasound and of course the tech is not allowed to tell us anything. I anxiously awaited Dr. Ban's call the next day to hear the results. I was certain all would be fine and it was cleared up. No, the opposite. The left was now at a moderate dilation and the right was at a slight. My heart sank. What does this mean? Will he need surgery? What is causing this problem? He can super soak a diaper so how can he have kidney problems? Dr. Ban said we needed to go in for a VCUG test. They put a catheter in and fill his bladder with a liquid dye and take x-rays to see if there is reflux of urine back into the kidneys. If that was the case, there would be high chances of kidney infections. The test would also tell us if there was an extra valve on the back of his urethra causing the blockage. God was watching out for us and our friend Kayla is the Radiologist at the hospital who does this test. We were scheduled for the VCUG on Thursday when guess who came down with a cold on Wednesday night. There is nothing more heartbreaking than watching your two week old try and breathe with a stuffed up nose! I felt so helpless for him. We went to Dr. Ban Thursday morning to confirm it was just a cold. They performed the most brutal tests to make sure he didn't have rsv. He screamed and cried. My baby doesn't produce tears but he did that morning! Then in the afternoon we went in for the VCUG. Poor thing two awful tests in one day. He did amazing! Kayla performed the test twice to 100% make sure that we were in the clear. There was no refulx and no extra valve. What does that mean? We will go back for another ultrasound in 3 months to make sure the kidney's haven't gotten worse and in 90% of these cases it just goes away by 18 months. This was our best case scenario. I will try to forget about it until 3 months from now. My best friend said it best... it is just a little piece of what gives him character! I am glad there is no reflux or valve. I was so sad with tears streaming down my face that my little boy was going to need so much more. When in reality, all we need is a little bit of time. I know this is not my last hard day as a mama but it was a hard first go around! 

until next time...

Sunday, October 7, 2012

37/38 weeks

37 weeks

38 weeks

How far along: 37/38 weeks 
Gender: Our little man 
Maternity clothes? I don't think they make clothes that fit women at this stage of pregnancy. 
Stretch marks? We always called B the "monster" and well he truly is. We found out he will be at least 8 lbs.. what this means for me... those darn stretch marks finally arrived 
Sleep: In three hour chunks and then just get up at 6 AM 
Symptoms: 75% effaced and on and off contractions
Name: Brayden
Weight Gain: Welp when you are growing a monster the gain continues +30
Cravings/aversions: JUICE!!! Love Juice! We got apple cider yesterday!!! 
How the baby is growing: He is full grown and ready... he just needs to realize that and come out 
Movement: He must be getting cramped because today he has slowed the jabs. Don't get me wrong he is still moving but not at the same rate!
What I miss: When you go to a restaurant and you scoot your chair in and then you take a bite and lean in over your plate... I can't do that!  
Best Moment of the Week: Finishing off B's room with pictures in the frames! 
Worst Moment of the Week: When the contractions stopped and didn't come back... boo
Belly button in or out? I for sure thought this thing was going to pop but I guess the cave was SO deep that it still has room to come out more... we are still in
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time? Pleasant still but these last two weeks are getting to me. My feet start to get fat at the end of the day now. It's a good look I think! 
Looking forward to: Meeting this little guy already! 

until next time...

Monday, September 24, 2012

34/35/36 weeks

I am on th I-pad so it is a no picture post...sorry! We are doing good just busy busy as we count down the last few weeks!! Didn't this go by fast?


How far along: 34/35/36 weeks 
Gender: our little man
Maternity clothes? I can tell the belly is bigger because things that are maternity and used to fit nice do not anymore!! 
Stretch marks? I might have one still trying tomfigurenout if it is or not hahaha maybe that is denial! 
Sleep: this last week really took a turn. I need SIX pillows to be somewhat comfy...not good! 
Symptoms: Mint tums are my favorite! Takes the reflux away!
Name: Brayden!
Weight Gain: With 3 weeks left I am up 27 1/2 lbs. phew! Let's keep it to a lb a week! 
Cravings/aversions: Sugar is amazing and so are blizzards. It didn't help that when we went to the sounders game we got buy one get one free blizzard coupons! 
How the baby is growing: He is a honeydew. Dr's want to do an ultra sound this coming thursday to check out his size. We are measuring a little bigger and well we all know at 5' tall it might be a challenge to get him out of there. Please pray for no c section and that they at least let me try on my own! 
Movement: This morning he decided to drop a little. This means I can take in deep breaths. It also means more pressure down yonder! Ouch! I over did it yesterday staining the fence, runni g around with my mom and other chores! Oops! 
What I miss: exercise..period! I want to bike run jog do more than walk one lap and have my back hurt!
Best Moment of the Week: finally hanging up things in B's room! So close to being done. The fish need bubbles and then put the randomness away!
Worst Moment of the Week: Waking up every morning and my feet hurt so bad! Once they get warmed up they work again! 
Wedding rings on or off? On! No swelling phew! 
Happy or Moody most of time? Still happy but Ntsy when things need to be taken care of. I get nervous everything won't be in order before he gets here! 
Looking forward to: seeing the little man on the big screen Thursday! 

until next time...

Saturday, September 8, 2012

30/31/32/33


We have been so stinkin' busy this summer. I have not had any time to sit and blog. We are go go go and eventually I will make a blog of pictures that will depict our summer. As for now, here is the update for the last month.



How far along: 30/31/32/33 weeks 
Gender: mommy's new man
Maternity clothes? I am now outgrowing some of the shirts I have. They are tighter and barely covering that belly of mine. 
Stretch marks? I just keep slapping on the lotion
Sleep: Oh I wish I could sleep past 5 AM!
Symptoms: The burps and reflux are baaaack
Name: Baby B or Brayden
Weight Gain: Wow since last time we have gone to the Dr. twice and I am now up 26 lbs.... it can stop now. No, really it can!
Cravings/aversions: Still loving sugar
How the baby is growing: He is a butternut squash this week. His bones will all be hardened in the next two weeks!
Movement: Today was not a good day... we played let's see how many times we can stick our fit into mommy's right ribs!
What I miss: I just want to sleep on my belly!
Best Moment of the Week: Oh my gosh... I had a baby shower that was so much fun, we went to the sounders game today (hot but fun), Nic's 10 year reunion, and my brother got married! 
Worst Moment of the Week: I dread sitting in the car for more than 10 min. It is not comfy in the least. B gets squished and mad and moves and jabs... no good!
Wedding rings on or off? On and still loose. I haven't gotten swollen
Happy or Moody most of the time? Although uncomfortable, still happy
Looking forward to: booking another massage!

until next time...

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

27/28/29 Weeks oops

I have been a huge slacker so here we go! 

How far along: 27/28/29 weeks 
Gender: little man
Maternity clothes? Funny joke... I tried to put a regular t-shirt on and my belly hung out the bottom. I swore I would never be that pregnant lady and took it right off! 
Stretch marks? Lotion is key people!
Sleep: I have a night here and there where I sleep
Symptoms: What are these? I still feel normal
Name: Baby B or Brayden
Weight Gain: We went to the Dr and guess what people! The scale is my friend... I didn't even go up a full lb... +20 right now
Cravings/aversions: ummm I like sugar sugar sugar... oh and the waking up at 2 AM starving has returned... mmm peanut butter on toast 
How the baby is growing: He is an acorn squash this week and will triple in weight in the next 11 weeks...YIKES 
Movement: When is he not moving?!? We went out on Cory's boat this past weekend and he didn't move at all! I think he likes to motion of the ocean
What I miss: Okay tmi time... I wish I could wipe like a normal person after going to the bathroom. How in the world will I do this in a month or so?!?! Drip dry?
Best Moment of the Week: I am currently at the salon to get my hairs did and then I am off to get my massage! Ahhh such a spoiled girl
Worst Moment of the Week: That nasty heat we had over the weekend. Thank goodness my 5 year old niece shared her slip and slide with me. Well I sat in the little pool end of it and she dumped water on me! Then we went out on the boat with them the next day! Gotta beat that heat! Good thing it is 68 degrees today... NOT. I want my summer back.. just keep it under 80 degrees please
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time? HAPPY!!!
Looking forward to: M-A-S-S-A-G-E

until next time...